it's not that i want to be in germany right now, instead of portland, it's just that... i'm beating myself up over something that's pointless to dwell on. i wonder if, had i stayed, i would have been sent. and i wonder if i would have done it... while i was walking around town today i realized that though this re-location isn't as far, it's still a challenge.
for curiosity, etc. i'm going to note each day how many jobs i've applied for. it'll be obvious if/when i hear back from any.
jobs today: only 5, craigslist is no good on wednesdays